Up until now this blog was strictly book reviews. I wanted to write other things but I set this up for reviews and reviews only so my other thoughts just had to go somewhere else!! Normally out the window and gone forever. It registered the other day as I contemplated creating a second blog to ramble on that I am insane and should not worry so much about these kind of things. But try as I might, I just couldn't bring myself to "contaminate" my review blog with other stuff. Oh gasp, how could I even entertain the thought!
Now, for the record, I have never been diagnosed with OCPD but I do suffer from it in a non-crippling way. I have to do things a certain way and can't handle changes very well. I once set out to catalog my library of several thousand books. My wife decided to help me but when she sat down at the computer to let me show her what to do, she was shocked by the insane amount of information I was entering! She said, "Why not just enter the title and author and be done with it?" GASP and DOUBLE GASP!!! But what if I need to cross-reference books that have the same publisher with ones that used the same illustrator? She got back up and told me I was on my own! Overall, I like to have things organized a certain way, I get irritated when someone puts something back in the wrong place, I pay a little too much attention to unimportant details, and when I set a plan in my mind for something I hate to deviate from it. I do very well in my job and there really is never any issue at home beyond some fun teasing from my wife and friends. Mostly, I just see the results in my personal life.
Which brings me back to the subject at hand. After a couple weeks of struggling, numerous battles of will with my inner man, one lost battle where I actually created another blog but didn't post anything, I am, with trembling fingers and wavering heart, posting this blog as the first, non-review post to my blog! So in honor of this momentous occasion, I'm also renaming the blog as well! They say admitting that one has a problem is the first step on the road to recovery. So now I'm a full three steps on my way!! :)
Do any of you find you suffer from a similar affliction? How do you cope? How does it affect your lives?
Now I'm off to put something in the wrong place on the shelf! For a few minutes at least. :)
I am too an OCPD sufferer, diagnosed by my psyquiatrist. I collect all my mails from gmail every year and copy past them all on a word document to keep a record of all my "history" year by year. This is just an example.
ReplyDeleteBut in your case it seems that is just one trait, to be well organized, and that it doesn't affect your emotional life at all.
You are right, it doesn't affect my emotional life to speak of. I do struggle with letting go of something once I have set my mind on it, but once I do get myself to the point I can do it, I am fine.
ReplyDeleteI know that there are many people out there who really struggle to balance their lives with this disorder. I am thankful to only have mild symptoms.
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